Knock you down

Holiday

2009-11-13T09:49:00.003+08:00

Seriously, i have no idea what to blog about.

It's been quite awhile since i last blog and i was thinking of changing to tumblr.

Anyway, i spent 122 bucks on yesterday's shopping. I could not believe with myself.

One dress itself cause be almost 64 bucks. It was supposed to be 79 bucks but they are on sale. How lucky can i be ?

My make up stuff itself cost me like 50 plus bucks ?

I need more more more money. Or not i can just declare myself broke anytime.

Anyway, wearing the 2.5 inch heels yesterday really can bring me to hell.

Even when i woke up today, my legs still hurt.

I did not expect wearing heels could hurt so much.

Today going shoppinggg again. ;D

Stop procrastinating

2009-10-10T07:58:00.002+08:00

Wheesung 6th album totally rocks.

I really have to stop procrastinating. O levels are round the corner, and i am not done with even one subject. I am totally not prepared for the upcoming examinations. The thought of it makes me feel so nervous.

The way you look at me, gives me a sense of security.

The way you smile at me, just makes me want to be with you.

But i know, i am not ready yet, at least for now.

I am not going to ask you to wait cause i know it is pointless.

So just walk away.

Hectic

2009-09-25T18:24:00.003+08:00

I was just looking through the hectic block-booking time table for the next 2-3 weeks. All the lessons seems to be crammed together. Adding on, night lessons are going to begin. Looks like i really have no time to slack.

Anyway, today i came to know that i failed my physics main paper. I was so disappointed. I wasn't expecting a fail at all. After so much late nights, i thought i would at least passed. I am feeling really upset with myself. Screw the whole physics paper.

Self - Discipline

2009-09-23T19:59:00.003+08:00

Even though i am on the Internet right now, i succeeded in resisting all kind of temptations. I did attempt to watch my Korean drama but i end up crossing the window. I am on the laptop as i want to hear my Korean songs as nobody is at home. Home is pretty quiet right now.

Results for today was quite disappointing but instead of feeling demoralised, i feel even motivated to do better.

Once Again album songs are quite nice, i don't quite understand why is he not popular.

Pointless

2009-09-22T23:32:00.002+08:00

I think i totally screwed up the whole science practical today and there's nothing i could do now. So i mind as well not brood over it. Anyway, i feel that my school is such a cock-up school. I was informed to report to school at 8am tomorrow just to check my prelims examination papers. But i seriously wonder, what's the difference between 8am and 8.25am? It's like only 25 minutes difference? It's not like it makes a huge difference ; why can't they simply just stick to 8.25am.

Alright, another reason is i don't really wish to check my prelims examination papers tomorrow. I am afraid that the results for every subject would be very disappointing. This would result into me feeling very depressed. I really hope that whatever tomorrow's results is going to be, it's not going to ruined my mood.

This video of kim hyun joong is really funny.

Countdown

2009-09-22T01:06:00.005+08:00

From this day onwards, i think i am left with one month till the day where O levels are really starting. And yet, i am still slacking around. I have been watching television and enjoying my korean dramas for 3 consecutive days. In a few hours time, i am going to take my Prelims science practical examination. I really hope nothing goes wrong and hope i don't mess things up.

I have never regretted and i definitely will not. I chose not to accept is not cause i am afraid to but is cause i lost faith. Now you asked me the same question over and over again, my answer will always be the same. I have seen your efforts but i am not touched and i hope you will stop doing all those foolish things. The ending will never changed.

Korean Madness

2009-09-20T10:46:00.002+08:00

I have been downloading countless of korean songs ever since i found the website which allowed me to download the full album of any korean singers. Currently, my phone is 100% full of korean songs. I thought i would regret and brood over my english songs but i guess not, i am actually enjoying all my korean songs.

I have not been studying since prelims ended, some part of me is actually feeling very guilty. So i guess i have to start flipping through those books again.

Share with you guys one korean song that i am crazy over. ;D

In high spirits

2009-09-18T22:11:00.003+08:00

Daddy is back from his business trip and i missed him so much these few days. Suddenly, it feels weird when i don't hear his nagging for a day. Unfortunately, he did not bring any presents back for me. Anyway, i don't know whether it is considered that prelims are finally over as we still have a practical examination on next tuesday. But well, i know i can relax for awhile.

Okay, i finally gained the courage to delete all my english songs in my handphone. I just downloaded a few albums of korean songs and since it is in mp3, the file of one song is considered quite big. But i really like mp3 songs, the quality is so much better and the songs are so much more clearer. I am not saying that other version ain't good, just that mp3 quality is much more pleasant to my ears. I am so glad that i found the website where i can download the latest korean songs and the full version albums.

I am in high spirits right now and i have no idea why. I guess everything is going so well.

Going smoothly.

2009-09-17T01:33:00.003+08:00

Everything seems to be going smoothly. Though i really have no idea how well or how bad i did for my physics and math paper today but i feel that a heavy load is off my shoulders right now. After so much hard work i put in, i am confident that i will do better than mid-year examinations. Alright, shall not be too over-confident.

Anyway, i am a happy girl today again. Met up with mandy and the guys just now. Seeing all of them with their motorbikes, makes me feel like going for a ride. They update with me what are the latest events and what they have been doing. I seriously do admire them in some way but they also admire me in some way. Though my parents think they are some kind of bad company but i can assure that they are not. They have been there with me through thick and thin. Overall, i love you guys. Not to be mistaken, they ain't my only friends, i also love my school friends. (In case, they say i do not love them. HAHAHAHAHA)

You made me realise that there are many beautiful things awaiting for me.

Understanding

2009-09-14T23:19:00.002+08:00

I did not sleep the night before today which ended up me making countless of careless mistakes during my math paper 1. I really can't find words to describe myself. I know that the day before exams i have to sleep earlier but just cause i wanted to chase my taiwan drama series, i ended up not sleeping the whole night. How silly and foolish can i be ?

Is through those despicable acts that i have seen through who you are,
but girl, i understand.
You were just fighting for someone who you really loved.

Goner

2009-09-13T18:38:00.002+08:00

Tomorrow is my chemistry and math prelims paper. AND I AM SO FUCKING NOT DONE WITH MY REVISION ! I need more time, please god, i am begging you to spare me more time. Just paused the fucking time for awhile, maybe longer than awhile ? I pray hard that tomorrow's paper is gonna be a easy one.

I have seen the ugly side of you, bitch.

I am a happy girl.

2009-09-12T23:41:00.007+08:00

I don't know why but i feel so happy right now. There is no reason to why i am feeling this way, i just feel so freshen up. I am going to mug my math later on. Thanks to those who kept pushing and encouraging me to work hard. I feel so determined right now. Maybe there is one reason to why i am feeling so happy, cause liverpool is winning the match. Anyway, to thank those who kept supporting me, i shall share some un-glam photos of me. Like what my brother say, i am feeling very bored, so i decided to start snapping. If you notice clearly in the pictures, i am actually using nexcare acne thingy. Enjoy yeahhh & these photos are how i looked when i am mugging. ;D

Goodbye my allowance.

2009-09-10T12:43:00.005+08:00

Seriously, i am down with a really bad headache right now. Adding on, my neck really hurts a lot, i must have strain it somehow. Anyway, prelims is just next week and i am not even halfway through my revision. I am sick of studying, really sick of it.

Following on, i am spending over 100 bucks on my online shopping. After this month, i can proudly declare that i am broke. On the bright side, at least i have a lot of new clothings to wear after O levels. I am soooooo not going spend any money on online shopping after this month, need start saving up for my contacts, make ups and moreeeeeeeeeee.

Revision! Revision ! Revision !

I am sorry ; I can't be perfect

2009-09-05T19:26:00.002+08:00

I know that i can never take the place of my sister in your eyes. In your eyes, she's always perfect. She's good in her studies ; she's always studying till late at night ; she's able to cook your favourite food. What about me ? Matter of fact, i am not good in my studies, i don't study till late at night and i am don't cook well enough. I did not want to compare myself with her but the way you treat me and the way you treat her, it's totally different.

But i have been working hard. I am already doing my very best. I am not good in my studies cause i dislike studying, i don't study till late in the night cause i ain't a night person, i don't cook well cause i am not good at it. Can't you just try to understand me a little ? I have seen the way you treat mummy, she's already emotionally unstable. I am trying my best to make everything go right in this house. But you ain't helping me out here, instead you are making matter worst.

But i guess i am just a disappointment.

Stacking up.

2009-09-03T13:56:00.002+08:00

Finally, 2 days of prelims are over. Nothing to be happy about, it's only 2 days. All i can say is, i have been living in hell for these 2 days. The first paper was english paper 1 & 2, my work was like atrocious. I did not managed to finish my paper 1. Seriously, i was feeling kinda disappointed but well, i can't feel demoralised at this moment. It will just make me lose my determination to do even better. As for today, i did not managed to finish my Social Studies paper. I just scribble my way through the SBQ. However, chinese paper 1 today was pretty alright.

Well, have to go and mug for tomorrow's geography paper.

I am pushing myself to my limits so that i would be able to excel. However, it ain't easy.

Sick of it

2009-08-31T13:21:00.003+08:00

I am not in school and i am not even studying. I know, i am supposed to celebrate teachers' day with all my teachers. As a matter of fact, i am grateful to most of my subject teachers except for some. I did have the intention of going to school today but it is so tiring to pull myself out from bed. And the thought of having to do the stupid workout today just drown the intentions.Furthermore, my friends are in school working hard and yet i am here slacking and blogging.

Ohmy, what i am going to do with my life ?

Choices

2009-08-27T23:46:00.002+08:00

If there was a beginning , it would meant that there would be an ending .
I am sorry to say , i do not believe in happy endings as they are for fairytales only.

Prelims examinations are getting nearer and i am soooooo not prepared.
i feel so ..... unexplainable.

For your information

2009-08-25T00:03:00.002+08:00

I am a very straightforward person. I say things that comes straight into my mind. This does not mean that i did not give it a thought before i say anything. It means that, though how hurtful the words may be, i don't fucking give a damn. If you don't like what i have said, than it is too bad for you. Either you live with it or you just quit being my friend. I really don't give a damn if you go around complaining to all your friends. You just make me look down on you, make me feel that you are a loser. Just face me straight alright ? Stop being a chicken.

My apologies

2009-08-24T00:05:00.002+08:00

I seriously want to apologise to my brother. I have been slacking the whole day today by watching countless of DVDs. I know i am a total disappointment to you. Forgive me yeah ?

My dear, forgot about what have had happened and remember, you have been loved deeply before. It dosen't matter is by who or whom. Move on and get over it. Let the past be past tense and focus on the present.

Misfortune

2009-08-21T17:11:00.003+08:00

Sharmaine look so prettyyyyyyyy.

Hi everybody.

I am here to blog about what a horrendous day i had. Firstly, i was late for school. It was not on purpose and i have no intention of skipping school as O levels is getting nearer each day. Worst of all, i had a physics test today and i studied god damn hard for it. I did not want to go school as i did not want to have detention which means i would not be able to attend my math tuition today. I have already missed one math tuition for this week, i did not want to miss another. So i decided to skipped school. Daddy agreed with the logic which i came up with. Mummy did not say much as she saw me mugging real hard the day before. So yeah, my parents are so understanding.

Secondly, i need to have an MC since i did attend school today. I went to the polyclinic since 7.30am till 11.30am. The stupid polyclinic made me wait for four fucking hours. Seriously, whats with the system of the polyclinic today. It is getting from bad to worst.

Thirdly, i rushed home and get change to meet sharmaine outside school so we go proceed to white sands as i needed to top up my concession card. Met up with heidi and gave her , her birthday card. After topping up my bus card, we went to take bus 15. Sharmaine and I was chatting very happily on the bus. As the bus was reaching our bus stop, i pressed the bell. The fucking bell did not sound at all. There was so many people blocking my way and it is kinda embarassing to reach out my hand and press the bell which is opposite of me especially if the passenger who is blocking my way is a man.

Fourthly, it has already started to drizzle. And since we have missed our stop we decided to walk to our tuition teacher's house. When we got off the bus, it started to rain heavily and yeah, stating the obvious, we were half drenched. The fucking traffic light took so long to switch to the green man. And since sharmaine was almost drenched, she wanted to go home and get changed. i rang up our tuition teacher asking her to reschedule our timing and she agreed. So we have to meet het at 2.45pm. We flag for a taxi and the fucking taxi did not want to sent us as he did not want to make a U-turn. How heartless can he be, we are already fucking drenched. Anway, we were standing in the rain while waiting for a taxi. I am very sure that i am going to get sick. That stupid sharmaine get to bath while i don't. And after an hour, i was still feeling very cold. Worst of all, my bag is made of cloth and now it stinks like a dead fish.

Seriously, is this an unlucky month for me ?

Another thing which is such a coincidence to me is that my brother overslept too. Seems like we are half blood-related.

Freaking out

2009-08-20T00:03:00.002+08:00

Okay, i am here to proudly proclaim that the HUNGRY GHOST FESTIVAL has just began. I am so freaking out alright. I am going to make sure that i don't stay up till 12am to study from now onwards ? But it is already 12am.

I am sorry to say, i don't trust what everybody is trusting.

Demoralise or not ?

2009-08-19T10:43:00.002+08:00

I score a fucking B4 for my chinese O level. Was feeling pretty upset after knowing it. But after much support from both of my parents and my beloved brother and sister, i am so not going to brood over it anymore. I am going to retake the paper again. Though i know it's going to be difficult for me to score a distinction as i scored a merit for oral ; i am not going to give up on hope yet. Distinction, i am so going to get you.

Failure.

2009-08-19T00:37:00.009+08:00

No wonder my mom said that the dining table belongs to me. I guess it is true.

I can't believe i am able to tolerate seeing his face everyday.

I was feeling really bored, so i just write on sam's uniform.

English lessons can be really boring.

I did not manage to memorise what i was supposed to memorise today. Damn, i am utterly disappointed in myself. Seriously, i am starting to believed what my brother said about me. Man, i really don't have self-discipline in myself.

Okay. i am feeling knocked out.

So goodnight.

Up next.

2009-08-18T22:43:00.004+08:00

Social Studies is up next on my list. I just finished studying a small percentage of chemistry. And I seriously doubt i will be able to memorise everything before i take my Social Studies prelims paper as i still have geography to memorise? Well, my brother always says, "As long as you work hard ; there is basically nothing to worry about. " So yeah, i am going to listen to him. Though i know, i am precisely trying to comfort myself.

And i am so not prepared to take my chinese O levels results at 9am tomorrow. I am totally freaking out. Fuck.

Because you made me believe in myself ; when nobody else can help.

Defeated

2009-08-17T22:43:00.001+08:00

Everybody is studying yet i am slacking my way here. Motivation please come back.
Study.Study.Study.

Is that smile that i am falling for.

Mixed

2009-08-17T01:37:00.001+08:00

Is just that one glance.

Happy Birthday YanHui !

2009-08-15T01:06:00.002+08:00

You see , yanhui , i can be really nice. It's already 1.07AM and i am here to post about your birthday. I hope we did get to surprise you yesterday cause we have been planning for this day since last week ? I am sorry that we have to push the celebration earlier cause i have a family outing later on. Hope you have a wonderful birthday celebration later on.

Ohyea , i hope i will be in your photo album one day !

HAPPY 17th Birthday YanHui !

Pressure

2009-08-14T00:08:00.004+08:00

I have finally finished my F&N coursework and have submitted it to my teacher. So i guess , i am not going to have to do any F&N coursework starting from now. Anyway, i just got my prelims examinations dates. Just the look of it, i can seriously feel that i am really short of time.

Adding on, i just tried a few topics of my physics ten year series. I totally sucks at science. If this carries on, i doubt i will be doing well for my O levels at all. Somehow, i am feeling that i have a heavy load on the shoulders of mine. Day by day, it keeps getting heavier.

Anyway, i had a nice 30 minutes chat with Vincent Goh Yi Wei just now. I don't know why, but he gets pissed off when i call his full name. I just want to say, i miss you vincent & i hope to see you before you proceed on to NS. I promise i will try to slot out some time to meet you.

Screw F&N

2009-08-13T00:22:00.002+08:00

I am fucking pissed and short-tempered right at this moment. My F&N coursework is driving me nuts and i am definitely going to reach my limits soon. Worst of all, i have exceeded the number of pages again which leaves me having to edit again.
Damn, i am going crazy.

Out of words

2009-08-10T22:28:00.003+08:00

Choi Seung Hyun / T.O.P is damn hot.

I have been staring at the " New Post " page for like 5 minutes. And I can't seem to type out a suitable title to describe my feelings.

All i have to say is today was a boring day , have been mugging and more mugging. I guess this is how i am going to make up to that brother of mine. Adding on , I can easily predict that tomorrow is going to be a boring day. Somehow , i wish O levels just end right now. I am able to feel the pressure as the days get nearer. Damn , i am not even ready to take any of the papers. Worst of all , if i am not wrong , i think i am going to get my chinese O levels results by this week ? I hope i don't get upset over the lousy results.

My brother.

2009-08-09T22:58:00.002+08:00

I think everybody is wondering why am i blogging about my brother again.

Okay, this time round ; He did not pissed me off.

Laughs.

Instead , he has been constantly motivating me to study.

However, his efforts was in vain cause i did not even study.

Well , i will make up to him.

Dreams or Nightmares ?

2009-08-09T12:26:00.002+08:00

Gosh , i think i am going crazy.
When i am sleeping , i dreamt about blogshops.
WTF ! Seriously , i think i am going crazy about online shopping.

I am happy , my taiwan items have arrived.
But i doubt i have time to collect.
And i keep buying and buying non-stop.
I guess i just can't wait till O lvls are over.
By than , i am sure i have a lot of clothings to wear.

Shopping ; Shopping ; Shopping ;
Let's go Shopping !

Tiring

2009-08-07T23:17:00.003+08:00

Though it was a tiring day today.

I can't help to say , i enjoyed my day today with my babes.

Will upload photos when i get them and update tooooooo.

move on ; my dear friend.

Losing the appetite.

2009-08-06T20:25:00.004+08:00

I have no idea why , but somehow i don't feel like doing any mugging today.
Woke up at 7pm and felt my whole damn body aching.
Have not eaten a decent meal today , just a few small bites.
My appetite is getting smaller and all the good food don't attract me.
However, since i am going to town tomorrow ; I will make sure i eat a lot.

Intentions of mugging chemistry damp my mood.
Worst of all , i am going out tomorrow. Which means i would not be studying.
And yet i am not making up to what i am going to lose tomorrow.
Makes me feel like i am a pathetic lazy loser.

Alright, i shall not think too negatively about myself.
Recently, i have been sooooooo into K-pop.
Blueteeth a lot of K-pop songs from cavell's phone to mine.
Listen to those songs quite a few times and still not yet sick of it.

Anyway, tomorrow i am hanging out with my babes and girlfriends.
And yeahh , SAMUELLLL ; I proudly proclaim that you are a girl.

Disappointment.

2009-08-05T22:46:00.005+08:00

I know i do not have the rights to interfere in that life of yours.
But i really want to say , you have been part of my life.
Not just a normal friend but a kin.

You have been my brother and my closest kin ever since the day you gave me a hand when i broke down.
Though we are not blood related but you have always been in my daily life.
Why can't you understand at all ? If you just walked away right now , my life would be affected too.
And please get this right ; Is not when i needed help than i would find you ?
Have i not shared with you my happy moments with you ? Have i not been your listening ear before ?
I am really disappointed to hear you say " Is when i needed help than you would come into my mind "
I never thought you would think of me to be that kind of person.

I know you are upset. I know what i have been through can never be compared to yours.
But even so, you've got to stand up and face it.
If you need a talk or a listening ear , you know i will be there for you.
But you totally disappoint me. I did not expect you to runaway and not face it.
And it really hurts me to know that you are walking away.

You know i'll be there.

MESS

2009-08-05T10:58:00.004+08:00

I have no idea why i chose " Mess " to be the topic today.
Probably i am feeling that everything is in a mess.
My house's dining table is in a mess. My books are pile up everywhere on the dining table.
And my mom said to me " I think the dining table belong to you already. "

Okay, the main topic is neither about the books nor the dining table.
I am currently in school right now. I am supposed to be doing my F&N coursework.
But somehow, i exceeded the maximum pages. So yeah, i have to summarise everything.
Basically, i just want to say, SCREW F&N.
Worst of all, my deadline is due to next week. Fuck !

Some part of me is getting sick of going to school already.
Early this morning , i told my mom ; " I don't wish to go to school today. "
Mom did not flare up at me but instead just talk things out with me.
But since i just woke up, i doubt i heard everything she said.

I want to hear you strum that guitar again.

Put on the headset.

2009-08-04T00:26:00.002+08:00

My emotions are going out of control.
Not cause i am in love but cause i just had a good and nice bath. And i am freezingggg right now!
Alright. I know i sound crazy again.

I have been mugging chemistry today.
And i am going to keep mugging later on. This is so, because i had my afternoon nap just now.
I just can't believe.
My life seems to be surrounded by countless and thick books. It's like i am going to be suffocated by them.
But what the heck ! Cause i know i am going to burn them all after O lvls are over.
Speaking of burning , i suddenly feel like listening to Funhouse - Pink.

Boonkiat and Desmond has been saying that i am very mean to them.
Well , i felt that i have been superrrrrr nice to them. Alright, i was just joking.
I just want to say, i really appreciated what you guys have been trying to do.
You guys have been superrrrr nice to me.

It's when you go crazy, thats when i am in love with you.

I AM A LIVERPOOL FAN !!!

2009-07-28T21:34:00.005+08:00

Alright. I know i have not been updating for quite some time.

But i am superrrrrrrr ; and i meant superrrrrrr hyperactive today.

Part of the reason is cause my friend just showed me a group photo taken with FERNANDO TORRES.

I know i sound crazy. But i seriously am a big fan of his.
I have to admit, i am jealous of my friend.
I really wanted to meet torres in person, though i know he is married.

Anway, Fernando Torres is just simply and sooooooo handsome.

I really regretted not attending the whole liverpool event.

Well, no point regretting. It's over.

Due to being a crazy fan of Fernando Torres. I forced my friend to give me a photo taken with him.

But he is damn SELFISH! Well, i can't blame him.

Bookish

2009-06-30T14:57:00.003+08:00

Have not been coming online for the past few days and i doubt i will be coming online the following days too.

So much things to do yet so little time.

I realised i have so much revision to do and i am not even halfway through.

I left with probably 2 months till my prelims examinations and yet i still have so much to revise.

Won't be updating often either.

Will be MUGGING !

Tired of Love.

2009-06-24T14:02:00.011+08:00

I like this picture ;D

Saturday -
I had a day out with nelson.
Asked nelson to company me to the 98.7FM ; Life's a Beach event.
& that nelson overslept which also means he was late.
While waiting for him, went to shop for father's day present.
When he arrived, we had lunch together. My apologies for eating so slow.
It's like we have so much to catch up with.
Following on, Nelson decided to watch the movie "Drag me to Hell" again with me.
So we only attend an hour of the 98.7FM event.
Overall, big thanks to nelson for accompanying and listening to me talking bullshit the whole day.

No photos as the whole camera was formatted. Photos were all deleted. ):

Sunday -

Went to attend Elyana's first month party.
My cousin gave birth to a baby girl this time.
The party was held at Singapore Art Museum ; at Dome ; a French Cafe.
The food there was delicious ; especially the cheese cake.
Went home after the party ended.

Monday -
Spent the day at home.
Mug ; Watch television ; Used the computer.

Tuesday -
Woke up early in the morning to watch my Taiwan drama series.
Around 12pm , got myself change to meet Yanhui and Sharmaine to do Geography Project.
We ended up slacking and chatting throughout the whole thing.
Did do bits and pieces of the Geography Project but not fully done yet.
We ended up watching 娛樂百分百 through youtube.

& since my laptop went out of battery ; we spent a more than 30 minutes searching for plug-ins.

Our effort went down the drain as we did not managed to find any.

Went home around 7pm. The worst thing is ; i forgot to bring my key.

Nobody was home at that timing ; so i ended up mugging at the void deck.

Gary accompanied me by talking on the phone with me.

Ended up, went home around 11pm.

Wednesday -

Was watching my drama series till late in the morning.

In the process, i webcam with darrell.

Slept at almost to 3am.

Suffocated.

2009-06-18T20:55:00.006+08:00

I have not been online for quite some time.
Which means i have a lot to update about.

Monday -

I went to the dentist on this day. And yeah, this day is considered as one of the worst day.
I never like going to dentist since young. The dentist said i have gum problem.
So i have another appointement to go during the month of July.
Basically, he help me polish my upper part of my teeth.
I have to admit, my teeth looks better now compared to the past.
And the dentist complained to my dad that i did smoke.
Actually, my dad is aware of me smoking, i guess he just don't wish to acknowledge it.
After the dentist appointment, i went to study with sister and sister's friend.
Following on, went to meet sister's new boyfriend. I have to admit, he is one rich guy.
Had Ajisen Ramen for dinner, had scoopz icecream for dessert.
The best of all is, i did not pay a single cent.

Tuesday -
Went to do visiting on this day. Visited my grandmother at nursing home.
Following on, visited my grandfather at queenstown.
Spent the whole afternoon there studying and had dinner with my grandfather.
Did not want to go home early as the wonderful technologies will stop me from studying.
Reach home around 8 in the evening and mug again. Loads of homework to finished.

Wednesday -
Went to amanda's house to study and to go gym.
But we end up eating and enjoying ourself. Amanda's house is like a food paradise.
Did mug a little.
After gym, went to ryan's house for dinner.
His dad prepared dinner. It's totally delicious.
Since it is ryan's birthday on that day, we had cake for dessert.
Reach home around 11 in the night. Really tired after gym.
&
HAPPY BIRTHDAY RYAN ;D .

Thursday -

Today, intended to mug the whole day.
Ended up watching televison.
And i have loads of homework to finished.
Seems never-ending to me.

Icecream.

2009-06-11T22:38:00.003+08:00

The weather is so fucking hot that it made me ate countless of icecream.

Alright, i am just exaggerating it. I just ate one cone of vanilla icecream.

However, the heat is really getting on my nerves.

It's like it wants to burn me to death or just cooked me up.

Today is a real torture.

I woke up 7.45am just to get myself prepared to go to school.

And I attended the english lessons for a whole 7 hours.

Imagine doing english for 7 hours, it's like hell man.

However, i managed to survive through the whole 7 hours.

Not bad right ?

Adding on, i am almost done with 2 sets of geography.

I just could not believe myself, why am i such a good kid ?

Intoxicated

2009-06-10T22:44:00.006+08:00

I PROUDLY ANNOUNCE THAT I AM FREE FROM F&N COURSEWORK !

HOWEVER, IT'S FOR NOW ONLY.

I am so happy with myself.
I finally finished my first F&N coursework for this year.
Though i know my teacher is going to return it to me for editing, at least i am free for now.
The worst part is, there would be a second one coming up.
Upon knowing that, i really feel like sigh-ing.

There are clubbing's event coming up.
And it is really starting to tempt me or to say i am already tempted.
Sometimes i really blame my friend for being an ass. He keeps telling me what are the up-coming events.
And he get me excited all over for nothing as i am broke for june holidays.

I have not done a single holiday homework.
And it it quite sadden-ing.
The most fucking thing is i have to attend a english lesson tomorrow at 9am.
How am i suppose to wake up. Feeling so dread right now.
Well, i can't blame my english teacher.
I blame myself for skipping lessons since last week.

Excited

2009-06-08T20:00:00.005+08:00

I can't wait for 15th June to come.

15th June
SOUND SERIES 1 @ The Arena
8pm ONWARDS

SOUND I;
Mic check, mic check, WE ARE READY TO ROCK

This summer, everybody shall rock and roll! Proudly presented by Event-link & F.A.D MEDIA,
SOUND I is aimed at people who enjoy music.Hmm, sounds vague? Not really we feel!!! With the drums and electric pumping in the Rock n Rolla vibe, the loud pumping bass for the Tectonic feel and with the loud anthem of R&B,what could go wrong !
SOUND I is sure to rock both your mind and soul out!

WHO SAYS SG AINT NO TALENTS???
Focussed on drawing only the LOCAL, TALENTED and ASPIRING to present you nothing but the BEST.
Watch as these 8 local bands rock their way through this whole performance,doing both covers from other bands and even THEIR OWN ORIGINALS

-ARMCHAIR CRITIC
-CATALOGUE: V
-THE DIVIDERS
-BARCODES FOR BREAKFAST
-STILLBORN
-Waiting For Nothing http://www.myspace.com/wfnsg
-MISISSUED

Also,
GUEST PERFORMANCE BY 'TALKTOTHEWALLS',
LOCAL VOCALIST with the voice of an ANGELand WAITING FOR NOTHING,
its time to see what this YOUNG LOCAL TALENT can produce!

For those who are ready to rock it out and prove that they are REAL HOT STUFF,
THIS COULD BE THEIR MOMENT!
INTRODUCING the "SMS-VOTING SYSTEM
YOU will decide which band will be "THE NEXT BIG THING"
so be sure to turn up and support your FAVOURITE BANDS of the night

Following right after AT 11PM,
DJ TOK ALONG WITH T.A.B,
Spinning you his INFECTIOUSLY RNB, ensuring you A NIGHT OF GRATIFYING MOMENT,
This is your time to take a break from life, and indulge in real partying,
come and have an absolute blast with all your best buddies!

So mark this day on your calendar.
GET DOWN TO WITNESS THE COMING-TOGETHER OF the best of the LOCAL;
Mic check, mic check, WE ARE READY TO ROCK!
Are YOU?

*YOU CAN ATTEND IF YOUR 16 or ABOVE
*ALCOHOL AVAILABLE ONLY FOR TH 18

This is definitely going to be exciting, thats why i can't wait.
The worst part is, i am going to the dentist on that day.
And i am kinda afraid that the pain is going to spoil my mood.
Worst of all, is that i would not be able to talk.

Please let that day be a wonderful day.
Damn, i can seriously be full of craps.
Whatever.

Enjoying every minute

2009-06-07T20:37:00.004+08:00

I guess i am going to be stuck at home this few days.

I have F&N coursework to finish and i am not even halfway through.

Worst of all, i am already in my holiday mood. I have not even start a single homework.

Oh gosh, i really need to do something.

Since i woke up this afternoon, i have been watching television.

Now, my show have finished. I am going to watch my drama series.

If this carries on, i doubt i will finished any of my school work.

I should really do something about the holiday mood of mine.

A day out

2009-06-06T00:30:00.004+08:00

Alright. I am super tired.

So i am not going type so many shit out.

Just want to say , i enjoy my day yesterday.

More photos would be up soon.

Shouting out loud

2009-06-04T01:05:00.003+08:00

" Be strong , my girls. You may have been heartbroken cause of the word love.
But please don't give up yet. Stand up by yourself & shout to the whole world ; I AM ALRIGHT ! "

Though i have been out from a relationship not long ago but i know, i am able to shout what i am written above.

Addictions

2009-05-28T18:26:00.006+08:00

For now, my brain feels like it is going hay-wire.

I guess due to doing to much Chinese composition ? or skipping my afternoon nap ?

It feels like my body is lack of sleep.

The first thing i came home was on my computer and took out my Chinese composition.

My first intention was to finished it before 8pm. I want to watch my television at that timing.

But i guess i will have a hard time finishing it. An hour has passed and i am still stuck at my first paragraph.

Instead of doing my homework, i end up web-caming with the hairstylist.

It helps to release my stress and kill my boredom.

I am so sick of chinese for now, i feel so tired.

Hooking back to cigarettes.

So much things to do yet so little time

2009-05-27T22:58:00.003+08:00

HELLLOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO !

My apologies for not updating.

Have been extremely busy with homework lately. Adding on, different subjects teachers are giving out holiday assignment.

I have recieve quite a few already. Upon seeing the thickness of the holiday assignments, it freaks me out.

I am halfway through my chinese letter writing.

And suddenly i feel sick about it. I intend to finished it in school tomorrow.

I should really give myself a break. Stressing myself too much isn't a very good idea too.

Had intentions of web-caming with gaoyang today. But he is quite pre-occupied with his project.

So i guess today, there won't be anyone for me to webcam with.

It is really quite boring.

Striving for the goal that i always wanted.

Don't quit babe (: - Mandy

FUCK !

2009-05-25T23:24:00.002+08:00

EXCUSE ME!

FREAKING ASSHOLE.

I , DON'T FUCKING OWE YOU A SINGLE THING.

GET THIS STRAIGHT !

Reminisce

2009-05-25T21:30:00.005+08:00

let's just bid each other the last goodbyes.

Mister, iloveyou.
But i guess this is where we really bid each other our last goodbyes.
I have no regrets at all.
You did give me a chance to proved to you how much i loved you.
However, you did not give me a chance to make things work out.
A relationship need to have two hands so things would be able to work out. I don't see your effort at all.
When i needed you most, you chose to walk away or push me to someone else.
Even if you did love me, it no longer makes a stand in my heart.

Though this seperation is for you to sort out your feelings and i did say i would wait for you.
But after much consideration, i don't even know when or whether you would give me an answer.
All this while, it was me who was waiting and giving in.
I am sick of it. I am tired of it.
If this relationship goes on, i know i am not going to be myself anymore.
I am taking the slower pace to give up on you and i know it will take quite some time.
But it is so much better than feeling the hurt all by myself.

I have deleted all the messages you sent to me.
If we do get a chance to be together again than we would start afresh.
I know that i am at fault for the fights that happened. I regretted for being so petty and asking so much from you.
Someone told me to treat this as a lesson and i am going to do just that.

This almost 7 month,
It consist of our happiest memories but also the hurtful ones.
Please don't forget.

Reality

2009-05-20T22:15:00.002+08:00

I apologised for not updating so often.

Have been busy with loads of school work especially when Chinese "O" level paper is coming.

Chinese afternoon programme till late in the afternoon is killing me.

My afternoon naps from 2 hours extended to 4 hours.

I guess i am really tired after a day of school and pimples are popping out from my face.

From what i can see, i believed life is not going to be easy from now onwards.

Results for the mid-year examinations wasn't so good. Just as what i have expected.

I can only describe one word for my results, atrocious.

I am really disappointed in myself.

If i were to score that kind of result, i can only land into a course in ITE.

And that's definitely not something that i want.

Mister,

you said it was work that is affecting our relationship.

But i guess that is not the actual answer.

Blame me for thinking too much , for trusting my own instincts.

I guess, whatever you say to me. No longer matters to me anymore.

I am trying my best not to allow my mood to be affected by your actions.

You don't seem to care. Anything about me don't seem to matters to you anymore.

I am not trying to say that my feelings have fade for you. Instead, i believed is yours.

My feelings still stay strong. Please don't be with me cause you are afraid of me failing my "O" levels.

I just don't see you putting effort in this relationship of ours.

I have to start facing reality instead of running away from it.

Nothing besides Feelings

2009-05-18T01:17:00.003+08:00

Nothing much happened on Sunday.

Went to visit my grandfather, had a haircut and shopped for groceries.

Goodbye to long fringe & say hello to short fringe.

However, i had a day out with Sabrina and Samuel on Saturday.

We went to quite a few places and though my legs got really tired and i was perspiring so badly.

I can't help to say, i had fun.

Especially with that cute babe of mine and that retarded gay friend of mine.

WIll post the pictures up soon when i get it.

I just want to say.

Mister, it is really very difficult to mantain this relationship of ours.

I can't get to see you so often. Even if i get to see you, time just won't stop there for us.

Conversations are short , messages are getting lesser.

But i am trying my best. Trying my best not to quarrel with you even if i had to.

Trying to control this hot-tempered attitude of mine.

However , you don't seem to know that i am suffering so much.

I just feel that i am not being myself anymore but i love you.

It seems like there is a heavy load on me and yet you weren't here to carry it for me.

& yet all i wanted was just you by my side.

That cologne of his remains

2009-05-14T00:33:00.003+08:00

Today i had my last paper for mid-year examinations.

I am feeling kinda relaxed right at this moment.

But i believed i am going to panic when my results are out.

I doubt there would be any good results.

Met mister after school.

We went to catch the movie " Horseman ". Interesting show but quite gruesome

If i am not wrong , i believed this show is more for parents instead.

Well , i am pretty bored right now.

Mister is on his way to his dream world while stating of the obvious , i am still wide awake.

I am so bored right now & i am missing two person.

Sabrina babe and Mister

Blank

2009-05-11T02:36:00.002+08:00

Earth-lings , Earth-lings , Earth-lings !
I am feeling so many kind of emotions thats why today's post is blank.
It's almost 2.40am & i could not get to sleep. I seems to be kinda wide awake!
As my memory recalls , i don't remember drinking a cup of coffee.

Firstly , i am feeling heavy-hearted.
Yesterday's mother's day did not end very well.
Instead , a huge fight occured between my parents.
As daughters , we would defintely be dragged into the problem too.
I don't wish to emphasize too much on this problem as i am not in the mood right now.

Secondly , i am feeling anxious.
Though tomorrow is a holiday but i am having two major mid-year examination papers on tuesday.
And yet , i am still chasing my drama series , 原来爱上贼.
Unbelievable right ? I can't believe it too.
I really pray & hope & wish that tuesday's Math paper 1 and Physics paper 2 is going to be a easy one.

Thirdly , i am having a mixed feeling.
So i can't really elaborate about why i am feeling this way.
When i know the answer myself , than i will share with others.

Sabrina babe,
i want to talked to you right now.
but i believed and know you are happily in your dream world right now.
So , i will be a good sister & not bother you.
I kinda feel like spamming your handphone right now.
HAHAAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAAHAH!

Wretched

2009-05-10T14:26:00.004+08:00

Alright , my pretty good mood was screwed.

My head seems to hurt a lot. It seems like there are never-ending thoughts running through my head.

Somehow , i wished i could just sleep through the whole day.

Is because when i wake up everyday , the first person i would be missing is , Mister.

And i hate the thought & feeling of when you don't seem to care at all.

I know it is wrong to feel this way or to even think this way. But i am sorry , i can't help it.

I know you are busy , you are tired after a day of work.

I should be understanding but i feel so neglected. We can never be the same like we were before.

Work seems to be your first priority. Our conversations are shorter.

There is so much i want to say to you & so much i want to ask you. But you would simply end the conversation and say you are tired.

I seems to be invisible to you.

I was looking through the post when i first met you. It really contains all the happy memories we had.

But when i am writing the current one now , the happiness totally vanish within the thin air.

Mister,

i really can't seem to get what you are thinking right now.

I don't seem to understand what your actions meant.

You make me feel so lost.

Do you feel the same like we were before ?

& HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY MUMMY !

Shortage of brain cells

2009-05-09T18:48:00.003+08:00

Hello Earth-lings !

Apparently , i think you all should be able to guess that i am in a pretty good mood.
And indeed , i am !
Even though , math is torturing my whole day & killing most of my brain cells.
I guess i am having shortage of brain cells , i feel sleepy after doing a whole chapter of algebra.
And it is kinda saddening , when out of 100% , i guess i only got 25% right.
I feel so demoralize.
But thats not going to spoil my pretty good mood right now. Laughs.

I am not going to annouce why i am in such a good mood.
But there is only a person who knows & that is Sabrina.

This paragraph is for you babe ;
Follow your heart & make the choice which your hearts says so.
No matter what remarks other people gives or think . You are not in the wrong.
Trust me , you are doing the right thing. Fighting for something that you love is not wrong at all.
Is when you did not do anything , you are in the wrong. And thats when you would regret.
I don't want to see you regretting , don't wish to see tears falling down from your face.
Three words , follow your heart.

Adrenalin rush tells me to pierce my tongue soon !

Don't ever go away.

2009-05-09T11:49:00.002+08:00

Gym was tiring yesterday.

Went to meet mister after the gym , was really glad that i was still able to talked to him again.

Though it was kinda awkward but i am happy.

And i realised that i could never live without him , the feeling is still as strong as ever.

Mister ,

i am not sure about the right words to say.

i am feeling so confused right now.

Seeing you yesterday made me miss you even more right now.

I miss that smile and laughter we always had , i miss those bickering we always had.

I miss being pampered by you , i miss being bullied by you.

Overall , i miss you.

The embrace yesterday was so short but i am still glad that i am still able to have it.

The smell of yours still lingers in my mind.

That msg sent by you was not able to stop the tears from falling down my face.

Mister , i am still so deeply in love with you.

So please don't go away ever again.

Naive

2009-05-07T17:59:00.005+08:00

Friends are saying that i am foolish , i am very naive to trust what you have said.
but i want to believed what you have said to me.
Countless of people are advising me to stopped keeping in touch with you.
In this manner , my feelings for you would fade faster and sooner.

I really don't want to do that.
I really miss you so much , I don't want any of our memories to fade in this manner.
Though most of them ain't happy memories but i cherish every single one of them.
But the more i think about you , the hurt gets deeper.
You have chose to walk away , you chose to leave me in a lurch.
I don't hate you , i can't bring myself to hate you.
Cause my love for you seems to overcome everything.
Mister , teach me what to do ? Teach me how am i suppose to live without you.
Cause i am tired of handling this battle alone. I did not chose to give up neither did i not fight for this battle.
But this battle is taking too long & i am tired.

iloveyou.
Let me continue to write this love story alone.
Don't stop me from writing it cause this is where our reminisce is kept.

When you look me in the eye , i surrender.
Cause i know that this love can never be replaced easily.

Mister , i miss you

2009-05-07T00:58:00.005+08:00

That girl in me said:
I don't know whether i should trust what you have said to me. Or are you simply giving me false hopes ?
Your actions don't seems to fit what you have said.
It have been quite awhile since you left me & i know i should not be brooding over you again.
但是我的心早已选择了你;

It's not easy to give up on you after all we have been through. Though i have chose to wait & you have given me hope but some part of me feels like you are lying.

Maybe you are going to say i am thinking too much & maybe i am. But i miss you so bad.

I am going to stopped pretending that i am happy anymore , i am tired of pretending.

No matter how much i try to get near you , you would simply add more bricks to the wall and blocked me away.

What have i done to deserve this ? Is it simply just my exams ? Or you really want me to give up on you ?

I love you , no matter how many times i repeat this three words , it is not going to bring you back anymore.

I am working very hard , pushing myself to excel. How i wish "O" levels were to end now so i am able to get an answer from you.

Waiting for you is making me feeling the hurt even more. I am missing you right now , are you ? I doubt so.

I know loving someone does not mean i need to have you by my side but i am too used in relying on you.

You just walked away without saying goodbye , without giving me a warning , without giving me time to get prepared.

I wish we could go back to the time when i first met you , i want the happiest moments to be back again.

Though i have said that you made me focus 100% on my exams , that is not a lie. But sometimes when i am alone , i miss you.

Sometimes when i am going to break down cause i can't take the stress anymore , i was hoping you would be here to give me a hug.

There is so much i hoped and wished for , i want only your shoulder to lean on ; Not anyone else but your's.

Even if it was just for a minute , i am happy ; i am glad.

I want you here to wiped of the tears that i is falling down my face right now. I have put a lot of effort in this relationship & it hurts me to see it just being wash down the drain.

In your heart , where do i stand ? In your eyes , what am i to you ?

I want to shout your name ; i want to shout out to the whole world that i love you.

But you are no longer mine ; No longer there for me when i needed you . Instead it was someone else.

Everyday , i am waiting. Everyday , i am fighting the battle alone. Everyday , i longed to see you.

I want to know your answer ; the answer that is in your heart.

The place where you stand in my heart ; will not be easily replaced by someone or anyone else.

Boy ; i love you.

I really do. This ain't a lie .

Disappointed

2009-05-05T14:20:00.004+08:00

I am very disappointed in myself.
I did not do very well for today's Chinese Paper 1.
My brain just wasn't functioning well. I did not have sufficient time to finish my Chinese composition.
Currently feeling very down.

Secondly , i am disappointed in my friend , Sabrina.
I created a quiz for my friends to try it out and i expect Sabrina to score pretty well for it.
Instead , she scored a 0% for me.
But this also meant that we both are still able to remain as close friends as there is so much more for her to know. Quite logical right ?

And tomorrow's paper is Chemistry and Math paper 2.
I doubt i will do very well for math. And it is a 2 hour paper.
Hope tomorrow questions are easy.

With words ; you understand.

Drained

2009-05-04T18:52:00.002+08:00

Currently ; i feel so fatigued.
I don't know why , i was supposed to wake up at 4.30pm.
But i can't bring myself to do so , instead i slept all the way till 6.30pm.
So basically , i have slept for 4 hours but i still feel so drained.

Anyway , i had a sense of satisfaction when i finished doing my geography paper.
Though i do not know whether i am able to score well or maybe even passed but i know i have did my best.
So , i am not going to feel sorry for myself if i did not do well.

And for today's English paper 2 ,
I finished everything on time & like my geography paper , I have done my best too.

Gym Class Heros - Cookie Jar ;
I am crazy over this song (:

2009-04-30T23:08:00.003+08:00

Well , i am back from my dinner.
I don't know why , but i feel like blogging today.
So , i have already blogged for 2 times for today.

As expected , i believed i have grown fatter.
I am so glad that tomorrow i am going to the gym. I really need to burn those calories and fats.
The food at Jumbo Waterfront is really very delicious.
I was so bloated after eating 8 different types of dishes.

我真的累了; 真的受伤了.
I have worked so hard just to get you off my mind ;
But i guess it ain't so easy as what i have expected.

I am like a puppet with no feelings at all ; I have to simply just put a strong front.

Act as if i am okay ; Act as if i am alright ; Act as if i am happy.

What i am feeling right now is so torturing ;
But don't you worry , i am not going to pin any hopes on you.

You have made it clear to me that you simply want me to treat you as a brother.

And since that is what you want ; i can't have a second say.

The feeling is still there ; but the hurt is stronger.

Poor Memory

2009-04-30T15:55:00.003+08:00

First of all ,

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MUMMY ! ;

Dinner at Jumbo Waterfront at Singapore Indoor Stadium.

This is where and when i will get fat.

My thinking skills broke down on me during my English paper today.

It took me more than an hour to do my proposal and i left with only half an hour to do my composition.

This means i just simply scribble what i could think of on to the piece of foolscap paper.

I am utterly disappointed in myself.

Worst of all , my memory broke down on me during Social Studies.

Which also means , i did not manage to finish it. Even though i am sure i will passed my Social Studies paper.

What i am worried about is my english paper.

I seriously hope i will be able to do well on my English paper 2.

After the examinations ,

Samuel , Amanda , Ryan and me do not wish to go home.

And since ryan has to make his spectacles , we decided to go to Tampines 1.

Spent our time shopping there. And i saw a scarf which cost only $9.50.

But it is more of a guy's scarf & i am so in love with it.

Should i buy ? Should i not buy ?

Betrayed

2009-04-27T20:35:00.003+08:00

Girl , i trusted you so much.
But i did not expect you to be such a hypocrite.
You totally betrayed my trust for you. And yet you pretended nothing happen.
We have been such closed friends since few years back and yet you stabbed me at my back.

I know you did care for me.
But now what you are doing is simply unforgivable.
I guess you think i do not know anything. But i do.
Stop flirting around and stop pretending that you care.
Just cause you need a guy's love , you do not need to go to such extend.
You make me feel like you are some type of cheap girl. Or maybe you are.

And stopped showing off that there are tonnes of guys who need you.
When there is actually none. You kept thinking that you were right. Kept thinking what you said is right.
Just cause you are older than me , does not mean you have a mature thinking.
You are still as childish as ever.
But i am glad you have done this. At least i have seen through your true colours.

Contented

2009-04-26T21:14:00.011+08:00

I am no longer upset. So my friends, stop worrying about me.
Instead i am very delighted

Daddy got me a new headset.
And i could listen to my music so clear without any disturbance.
I feel so pampered by daddy.

And for this morning , I had a hilarious time with Jun Quan.
Video Call with him from 2am - 5am. I should really say a big thanks to him for cheering me up.
I am really glad he did. And i am waiting for him to come online to see his pictures.

Swollen eyes

2009-04-26T00:19:00.002+08:00

Well , did study today.
Though it was only on a chapter. But i believed i have improved the slightest bit.
After losing the mood of studying , Amanda , Qianying and me went to catch a movie.
A Malaysian horror movie "Jangan Tegur ". Quite scary though.
But the movie was not really that good when some of the subtitles was not shown.
And since the movie was spoken in malay , i don't understand a single bit.

Well , i guess my feelings can't be controlled again.
Mummy came to talked to me. Somehow , my feelings could not be controlled again.
Cried the second time in front of her.
Comfort from her did make me feel better.
Amanda was worried about me too. And she wrote something meaningful to me.

Though i am not sure how long , but it will do eventually. One day worth of tears is enough for him.
One week of tears is enough for your misery, one month of tears is no longer needed.
Time can heal you, memories and photos hurt you. Forget about him and get your life on.
You can survive. He's not everything to you, he's just a heartless basket. So cheerup. Please.

A cheerful and sometimes irritating maureen is needed , not a sad maureen.

I seriously love my friends a lot, not forgetting my mother too.

Tired

2009-04-24T23:10:00.003+08:00

The weather today is so unbearable.

I doubt i need to go to the beach to get myself tanned anymore.

The walk to school could already do that.

Today , i did not study much.

Just felt today was not a really good day to study.

Gym today was tiring. Tried out most of the gym facilities.

I believe tomorrow my muscles would not spare me , they would just ache like hell.

Adding on with cramps. I seriously dread for tomorrow to come.

And i am definitely sure i am not going to back out on studying anymore.

MAUMAU ; PERSEVERE

You are my sweetest spot

I got over you

2009-04-23T21:46:00.002+08:00

School was tiring today , adding on with the humid weather.
Seriously , i feel i am way behind time.
I really need to buck up on my studies.

Occupying myself with school work bring a load off my shoulders.
Scheduled myself with a continuous study outings keep me occupied.
I guess this is how life is going to be from now onwards.
I kept myself occupied not cause i want to stop thinking of that ex-boyfriend of mine.
Matter of fact , i got over him already.
I just want to keep a consistence work. In the manner , i would not lose out.

Deleted tagged , friendster accounts. And deactivated my facebook account.
I no longer need to use any of this accounts anymore.
They are just a source for me to kill time.

Life is cruel. Once you fall , you got to stand up by yourself.

Let's say goodbye

2009-04-22T20:45:00.003+08:00

Well , it is never going to be easy to give up a relationship which one has gone through.

So , it is defintely never going to be easy for me either.

I wanted to hide myself from everybody , wanted to runaway from everything.

But nelson said to me , i deserve better . My friends said to me , i deserve better.

My first step was to start deleting photos of you from my handphone.

I tried but till now not a single photo is deleted.

Those are memories of you and me. Something which i once cherish.

But after taking a walk through the park , breathing through those fresh air.

I realised that we can never be like before. So why force each other to be together again.

I am letting you go , letting this relationship go too.

I just want to say sorry for those quarrels.

I just want to say thankyou for those memories.

And i am going to bid my goodbyes to you.

Last & for all , iloveyou.

Walk away

2009-04-22T00:03:00.003+08:00

I was chatting with a good friend of mine ,
chatting with her about relationships problems.
She told me something quite meaningful and i would like to share with my readers.

When a guy woo you , they would chased behind you.
When you are together with the guy , they walk beside you.
When you are together with the guy for a long period of time , they will walk in front of you.

And due to personal experience , it is actually a fact.
So ladies , women and girls , think twice before you make a decision.
It is never going to be easy to mantain a long and stable relationship.
And soon , the feelings would fade.

It ain't easy

2009-04-21T00:56:00.004+08:00

Baby,

Being with you , there are laughter and sadness.

The laughter part is where i enjoyed the most , the sadness part is where i dread the most.

There are never-ending of obstacles to go through , endless fights to go through.

Sometimes , those fights allow us to speak out what we are feeling.

And knowing this feeling , allows us to understand each other better.

Well , i can't say that i understand you fully but i did tried my best to reach out for you.

But sometimes , no matter how much effort i put in or how much i tried , i don't seem to be able to catch up your steps.

You seems to walk even faster. And thats why i am tired now.

Being unreasonable became a habit , cause i wanted you to notice me more.

Being petty became a habit , cause i wanted you to look at me more.

Being a cry baby becomes a habit , cause i wanted you to care for me more.

And now , i am waiting for you to go home and give me a call.

But you seems so long and seems so far.

I feel so shag , somehow i wish your shoulder was here to let me lean on.

The effort of awaiting for you goes down the drain ;

We can no longer be like before.

Listless

2009-04-20T21:52:00.005+08:00

Sorry , don't feel like updating today.

Not in a very good mood.

Feeling very listless today.

Goodbye.

I am tired of trying to reach out for you.

Disgusting

2009-04-19T12:10:00.006+08:00

Well , i was browsing through my friend's friend's blog.
And i watch a video of Steven Lim and Xiaxue on Channel U.
It was one of the hilarious video i had ever watch.

I am totally not a fan of Xiaxue but at least i feel she is way much more better than Steven Lim.
Seriously , Steven Lim should have wore a more decent shirt before he went on television.
What he is wearing shown on the video is super disgusting.
And he still have the cheek to say that Xiaxue's boyfriend was wrong to choose her as a girlfriend.
He should totally look at himself at the mirror. Seriously , Xiaxue is way much more better looking than him.
Is their relationship , not his.
He just gave me an impression that he is jealous of her.

And Steven Lim , i totally agree with Xiaxue that you are disgusting so stop denying the fact.
Be a man and admit it.

Persevere

2009-04-18T15:42:00.004+08:00

Days are running out ;
and yet i am lazing around.

Finished quite a number of tests on Friday.
However , there is quite a number of exams coming my way.
I really should stopped daydreaming and start mugging.
Anyway , yesterday when roller skate-ing with Amanda , Chin Seng , Boyfriend , Heidi & Dawson.
The skates cause my legs to have blisters and though a day has passed , it still hurts.
We roller skate for almost 2 hours.
After roller skate-ing , we went to amanda's house. The others went to the gym , while me and boyfriend went for a swim.
Wanted to go for a sauna too , but due to the insufficient time , we gave it a pass.
Photo will be up soon when i get them from amanda.

Can't you hear me ; Take me with you.

Occupied

2009-04-15T21:10:00.003+08:00

Sorry Earth-lings for not updating.

Was quite busy with countless of tests and the upcoming mid-year examinations.

I totally have no free time for myself.

I was looking through courses of polytechnic today.

I totally have no idea on which course i want to go. While looking through , i kept asking myself the same question.

"What am i aiming for ?"

Till now , i have no answer. Nothing seems to interest me.

Time seems to pass so fast. I am so afraid that i am not prepared for all the upcoming examinations.

I want to do well so badly. There are so many people who i want to prove.

Prove to them that i am no longer the immature girl who runaway from home. Prove to them that i am able to do it.

Will this wish of mine come true ? or will it just fade away ?

Touch my hand ; Feel my heart

It will soon be gone ;

2009-04-06T20:44:00.002+08:00

I allowed my mind to wander around again , thinking about stuffs which might not even be true.
And now i fear of losing him.
I have no idea why did this feeling even appear in me.
I feel no sense of security at all and i am losing to myself.
Am i going to lose him ? The question which i kept asking myself.
His answer was " No ". But how come i don't seem to be able to trust a single word that he had said to me.
Now i am waiting for his call impatiently , a call which might not even come.
It was partially my fault for taking advantage of the love that you have showered me. It was my fault for not cherishing you.
And now is too late , i am on the verge of losing you.
And i am starting to regret for the things that i have done.
No point allowing the tears to flow down anymore.

Sometimes i wish i could just end this relationship and moved on.
When the time comes , everything would be back to normal again.
Is this what you have wish for ? Thats was what you once told me.
And i am going to explode soon cause i have bottled up too much feelings in me. Too much thoughts.

I am not only losing him but myself too.

Belated 5th Month-Sary ;

2009-04-06T00:27:00.002+08:00

Belated 5th Month-Sary ;

Well , this month ain't a smooth one for me and boyfriend.
That's why i can't say it is a Happy 5th Month anniversary.
Too much fights and quarrels we are having and a matter of fact , i am getting tired.
The thought of letting go and giving up did went through my mind.
But my heart and feelings chose not to. So the only thing i can do is keep moving on.
Parts of the quarrels are my fault , i guess the hurt which i left within him is so much more deeper.
And now , i doing all i can just to make up to him.
Make up for all the hurtful words i said , make up for all the unreasonable quarrel we had.
But no matter what i do now , there will always be a distance within us.
It is no longer the same like before.

I am looking beyond the horizon (:

Its more of a different feeling ;

2009-04-04T20:31:00.006+08:00

Well , days for this week has not been so smooth.

Mummy is flying to china today , midnight , going to miss her badly.

Wonder how i am going to survive with my dad. My mother only word to me was " Tolerate ".

I guess thats all i can do.

To the main topic of today.

I just got to know about this band " Tokio Hotel " not long.

And i find their songs interesting. Okay , i know i am outdated.

So the main thing is , i am crazy over them.

So for those who don't know them , i am going to post their pictures and let you guys have a look.

And Bill kaulitz is hot . No. He is fucking hot.

Show the pictures to some of my friends. At first thought , they thought he was a girl.

Even so , i believe she can simply turn me into a lesbo.

So yeah , get hold of their songs.

And when i lose myself , i think of you.

Is this the end ?

2009-04-03T13:43:00.003+08:00

Is it here , that we bid our goodbyes ?

I have went through a lot , i guess you did too.

Now both of us are standing at different end.

Well , you tolerate most of my nonsense and i guess now you are tired of it.

But you are still trying your best to strive through.

I am glad you chose to stay but i was hoping you would tell me the truth.

Is it here that you wish to belong ? or there is somewhere else you wish to go ?

I can't seem to mug at home.

2009-03-29T22:17:00.004+08:00

I think i really need help.

I can't study at home , there is so many source of technologies that i am attracted to.

I just can't simply reject them.

And my motivator is happily sleeping right now.

I am quite impressed with myself.

As i managed to read finish two books within a week.

The first book was , Nowhere to run - Judy Westwater.

The second book was , Mummy's witness - Gayle Sanders.

Both are a true story on abusing.

I just can't bring myself to believe that this kind of thing did really happen.

And i can't wait to go to the school library tomorrow as there is a book which caught my eye.

Read the summary of the book , seems interesting. Hope it is still there.

Goodnight (:

Not satisfied ;

2009-03-28T20:55:00.003+08:00

Today is Earth Day , if i am not wrong.

And yeah , my light is currently off right now.

I attended the school carnival today , woke up early in the morning.

Totally shag right now , first thing i did when i came home was fall on to the sofa.

And a big thanks to boyfriend , for accompanying me today for just a pathetic 2 hours.

And i met Alyssa bestie today . Shocking.

The reason i ask boyfriend to came down to company me was cause i don't wish to go home.

I don't wish to see my father.

He always think that he is right , never spare a thought on what i was thinking or what i want.

For the whole day till now , i just said 2 words to him and it was "Hey Dad."

There is nothing i wish or want to say to him.

Not cause we had a fight but i just can't find the words to say to him.

Whatever i say to him , he is always unhappy with it and would find faults with me.

So the best way was to cut short our conversation.

And he has won almost half of the battle as my mother had ask me not to go out too often.

I know he cares , afraid that i might fail my major exams. But this is not the way he should treat a child like me.

He clearly knows that i love freedom , yet he don't spare a thought for me and my feelings.

I am really disappointed to have a father like him. Maybe he feel the same way too but i am okay with it.

All this while , he haven been bias against me and never look upon me.

I was hoping , he would just give up on me since he dislike me so much.

I see no point why this relationship should keep going.

Never-Ending.

Goodbyes.

I dread to go home ;

2009-03-28T01:23:00.004+08:00

He's my motivater (:

My day yesterday was good and bad.

After school , i had a wonderful time with boyfriend. Did have the intentions of taking photos but it just simply slip off my mind.

Everytime when i am with him , i seems to forget things. Is like , my mind only has him when i am with him.

But when it comes to the late evening , almost midnight. I dread to go home.

My mother told me to come home early since my dad is coming back from his malaysia business trip.

I could not promise her anything , i just told her i will try.

I seriously don't feel like seeing my dad not cause i hate him.

I just simply dislike the fights which we will have when our eyes met. The quarrels which will never end.

I really don't wish to quarrel with him , thats why i have no intentions of coming home early.

But no matter what i did , no matter how i tried to avoid , it will never end . Instead it will keep coming.

Everyday , when i reach home. I will try my best to avoid any conversation with my father. I knew this would result in a gap between me and him.

But do i have a choice ? No

He used to be that wonderful & loving dad. But that dad of mine is gone & will never come back.

Goodbyes

xoxo

I need a Motivater ;

2009-03-26T00:12:00.006+08:00

Alright ,

I think i am done with my blogskin. Though it may be kinda plain , but it looks so much more nicer.

I have no idea what happen to me , i having a really bad headache. But i still want to blog .

A lot of thing happen today , i really don't know where to begin.

I don't understand why am i having fights with my dad almost everyday ?

Is it me who is in the wrong or is it him ?

The words which would come out from his mouth almost everyday is ; " You don't need study is it ? "

Am i a robot to him ? I need my breaks too.

No matter what i score or what i did , he would never be happy with it.

In his eyes , there is only my sister. And yeah , her studies are so much more better.

I seriously hope that he would get this in his head ; " I am your daughter too ! "

I am not a stranger. Just cause i failed a subject , he is going to stop me from going out.

Wtf , why do i have this kind of inhuman dad. I used to have a wonderful dad , but now is totally different.

I have a wonderful mom but i have lost my dad. Nowadays i really dread to see him.

Just the thought of him being at home , i don't wish to go home.

And he blames me for giving him a attitude. I should be the one blaming him for being a unreasonable and bias.

Whatever my sister say , he would never talk back to her. What about me ? What is so different about her and me ?

My mom is going on a holiday for 10 days , i really hope those 10 days would not come.

And i seriously need a motivater for my studies.

I should really stop the holiday mood of mine.

I am so not going to lose to my sister. She can do it , so can i !

And big thanks to sabrina , for teaching me on how to put up my links.

Sometimes , i really feel that i am quite stupid.

thats all for today ,

so ciao .

2009-03-25T00:06:00.003+08:00

Stop those lies of yours .

Please don't promise me anything ;

when you can't even accomplish it .

You simply just threw away those high spirits i had.

I drifted to my own thoughts ;

2009-03-23T23:30:00.003+08:00

First day of school ;

As predictable , first day of school is super boring.

I kept falling asleep in-between lessons. Tried my best to be awake.

And yeah , i am totally not used to the timing at all. I was almost late for school today.

Anyway , due to my sunburnt. I have a hard time carrying my school bag.

And i kept drifting into my own thoughts during lessons time.

I really need to kick off the holiday mood.

I miss my holidays , why must it end so fast? I am not even prepared to go to school at all.

And basically , i have no idea what to blog about.

Nothing much happen today.

so yeah , ciao (:

Sab , please come online soon.

I need you to teach me how to put up the links on my blog.

I feel so dumb.

The true meaning (:

2009-03-22T00:21:00.008+08:00

Well , i guess this is the first picture which i fall for when i got to know you.

Speaking of the truth , this photo was the first one which attracted me.

It's fate , which allows me to meet you. That is something which i can't deny.

I got to know you few months back before i really started talking to you.

And yeah , when i first know you. I felt that you were different from your other friends which i know.

That is the other part which attracted me too. But at that time , you don't seem to be interested in me.

So yeah , i did not pin any high hopes on you too. But after a few months , i met you again.

Isn't this fate ? I was fated to meet you again.

And yeah , you became one of the best and wonderful boyfriend that i have ever been with.

And i admit , in the first place the feeling was not that strong at all.

But now , it is much more stronger than you know. This is the only relationship which i really don't wish and am not willing to give up on.

You feel upset when you can't provide me things which i wanted. I don't blame you.

It's the thought which i am looking for. You may not be some rich guy , but you really tried. I can see that clearly.

You gave in to me even if you felt that i was wrong . Though sometimes you really tried to reason out with me , but you would always end up giving in.

You tolerate my attitude , nonsense , temper and everything. And though you stayed on the very end on where i lived. You never fail to meet me when i am free.

You push yourself to be that perfect boyfriend , to be that guy which i have always wanted.

And i admit , sometimes i did say hurtful words to you. Sometimes i do ignored you.

And you would get so worked up over it. And start worrying here and there.

And sometimes i would think too much , but this does not mean i don't trust you. Just that i am worried for you and fear that i might lose you.

So yeah , give me some space for that.

And , i love you much more than you know.

About my new blogskin , i have not update my tagboard and the links.

Will update soon . So no worries. (:

2009-03-21T00:54:00.004+08:00

Sorry my dearest friends.
Just change to this blogskin.
Will link up soon. (:

Later is my sentosa tripppppp.
And i am not sleeping yet. And i have not pack my items yet.
Oh gosh ,
Don't rain ; Don't rain. Don't let me get tanned.
iloveyou boyfriend !

Unexplained ; Unpredictable

2009-03-19T11:46:00.002+08:00

Yesterday had a study outing with Samuel and Amanda ;

Met Samuel at central , than took a bus to Amanda's / Ryan's Condo.

Samuel is going to the gym with Ryan while i am going to study at Amanda's house.

End up using the computer , and playing with Amanda. Studied only a little bit.

Around 3 plus , Samuel came to Amanda's house. Chatted awhile , than i tried on Amanda's clothes.

Her clothing's are really interesting.

After trying on which is around 5 plus , we went to Simei ITE to visit Sabrina.

Gave her a surprise. Than we followed her to Tanah Merah Mrt Station to meet her buyer.

And around 7 plus , Samuel , Amanda and myself went back to Simei , bought our dinner and went back to Amanda's house.

Delicious food we had. And after dinner , Samuel's parents came to pick us up and they drop me off near my house.

Big Thanks to them ; (:

Unexpectedly ,

Had a huge fight with boyfriend again. Yesterday.

But no matter how huge the impact is , i am not willing to give up on this relationship.

Glad that he feel the same way too. This is just an obstacle and i am going to get over it.

Iloveyou , and that would remain the same.

Let's just stop all this quarrels , i am tired.

I seriously have no idea ;

2009-03-18T11:31:00.012+08:00

Our Group Photo !

This is Interesting ! (:

Sharmaine look pretty !

Are they quarreling ? or is it just an act ?

I am so in love with her (:

Don't they look alike ?

Chin Seng (:

Quite a number of my friends are urging me to update.

And since i have nothing to do for today , i will just update.

My holiday is going to end soon.

I seriously hate the thought of it. I still have so much more homework to do.

And i have not enjoyed my holiday yet.

Friday

Its our group outing , not the full group though.

Firstly , Sharmaine , boyfriend and me went to town to shop.

Than waited for Amanda and Chin Seng to meet us.

Than we went back to downtown to meet Sabrina , Samuel and Heidi to catch our movie. " Coming Soon. "

It is so damn freaking scary. For all those who did not watch , you guys should defintely catch it.

After the movie , since we have nothing to do . We went to the carpark to CAM-WHORE !

Photos would be up soon (:

Monday

Was suppose to go out with Yanhui and Sharmaine to town.

But since the things i want went out of stock. I don't see why i need to go.

So i went to meet boyfriend instead. Went to Causeway Point to buy our movie tickets and had our lunch.

Than went back to boyfriend's house to sleep. Than we went to catch our movie. " Push "

I really did not expect the movie to be so freaking nice. I am really glad that i did not miss the movie.

Tuesday

Went to meet Samuel and Amanda , than we went to boonlay to collect our online stuffs.

The trip to boonlay seriously is a torture. It is so freaking long.

Had our lunch at Jurong Point food court. Their food there is so freaking delicious.

Half-way through our lunch , went to meet Jas. Really glad that i am able to collect my online stuff.

Have been waiting for it for quite some time.

I saw Yanhui's and Sharmaine's Hoodies. I am totally in love with it. Regretted not buying.

But the good news is , Sharmaine's does not want the hoodie as it is too big for her , so she is giving me.

And the bad news is , I have to pay her 19 bucks.

After collecting out stuff , we went to downtown to study. Than Yanhui came to meet us to collect her stuffs.

Around 7 plus , we went to have our dinner.

Than we went back home.

Something happened between me and boyfriend on this particular day.

I really don't know what to say , have you shown me your true colors on this day ?

I really did not expect to hear all those mean words from you. It was shocking actually.

I really can't bring myself to forgive you at all. Although i admit , i did say some mean words to you before.

But yours , is way too much. I really have no idea on what i want.

I am totally out of your league ;

2009-03-12T20:35:00.007+08:00

I want something like this ):

Have been really sick for the past few days.

No matter what kind of different medicine i ate , it is totally not helping at all.

Due to my incurable sickness , have been really shag and listless.

I really don't understand why is my immune system so weak.

As for today , my mood is pretty down.

I got some of my English marks today and i am able to confirm that i am absolutely going to fail.

Looks like my dad definitely has something to say about me again.

I have told my mom about my results , looks like she totally understands what i am feeling right now.

I feel that i have totally disappointed her.

No matter how much effort i put in , nothing seems to be going my way.

Disappointed in myself.

As for relationship ,

it have not been going smoothly as how i wish it would be.

My attitude totally sucks for the past few days.

Boyfriend and my relationship seems to getting more blend each day.

Our talks seems to be getting boring and boring each days.

Precisely we have nothing to talk about.

Is it me or you ?

The tears will never fail to stop ;

2009-03-08T17:31:00.005+08:00

I miss my lip piercing ; ):

Friday ;

After school , rush home and get change to meet boyfriend.

Went to boyfriend's house and ate lunch. Boyfriend's cooking never fails to be the second best.

End up playing around , than bought boyfriend's dog for a walk while boyfriend went to play basketball.

Nothing interesting happen on this day.

So ciao ;

much loves

xoxo ;

Saturday ;

Woken up by daddy , had lunch with him.

And he sent me to downtown to meet boyfriend.

Studied with boyfriend for a few hours , went to had dinner.

Slack around than went to catch " Kung Fu Chefs " at 7.30pm.

Really glad that boyfriend enjoyed the movie.

Did not want to go home so early , so we went to have a walk.

End up bullying each other . Than sent boyfriend to bus stop.

And went back home.

much loves

xoxo ;

Sunday ;

Woken up by my sister at 11.30am. Watch television all the way till 12.30pm.

Daddy came home from washing his car and his first question was " Have you wash your mom's toilet ? "

Obviously the answer is no. And indeed , he started shouting at me.

He is just simply bias , he knows that i don't wash the toilet in the morning.

He does not scold my sister like he always does to me. And he kept proclaiming that he isn't bias.

And sister always side him , kept telling me that " Daddy isn't bias ! "

No offense but how would my sister know in the first place , she wasn't the person who got scolding.

It was me , so what if my sister is so much more cleverer than me ? I am not stupid either.

I admit , my sister is studying in Junior College and i am stuck in secondary 5 of a normal academic class. I am not as smart as her .

But does that mean , my dad has to be bias against me ?

I may be one of the most rebellious girl in the family tree but does that means my dad have to be bias against me ?

And he simply end the whole conversation with " I am sick of your attitude ! "

Since you are so sick of it , why live with it ? Just allow me to leave this house and stop bothering me.

Fuck ! Give me some peace alright !

Happy 4th Month-sary ; I love you

2009-03-05T22:27:00.004+08:00

Please get this straight ; I am not emo (:
i just love this picture ; thats all.

Random.Random.Random.

I don't know what to blog anyway. And yeah, i am being random here.

HAPPY 4TH MONTH-SARY BABY (:

Though i did not get to meet boyfriend today ,

but i will still get to meet him tomorrow. Okay. i am really being lame.

I just can't believe i have been with him for 4 months , time seems to pass so fast.

But i am really quite amazed that boyfriend is able to tolerate such bad attitude i have.

Common tests are over , so i basically have not much stress.

Blablabla... Not much to blog about anyway.

Stallon Cheong Weiming,

I love you .

Getting Closer.

2009-03-01T01:13:00.006+08:00

The reason , why i am in love

Alright , i just can't get to sleep.

Maybe cause i had a nap in the afternoon.

So just to kill my boredom , i think blogging is a good choice.

Friday

Had a Food and Nutrition and chemistry test.

Hope i do well in both of them.

After school , went home and get change cause i am going to meet boyfriend.

I only get to see boyfriend once a week , sometimes twice .

Maybe that is one of the reason why i miss boyfriend so much and why i am always happy when i sees him.

Boyfriend prepared lunch and dinner for me . I can't say he is a best cook but whatever he cooks always taste so delicious.

After that , went to see boyfriend play basketball , brought boyfriend's dog along too .

Around 10pm , brought his dog home and he sent me back home.

After this day , i feel i am getting closer and closer to boyfriend. Getting closer to his everyday's doing.

Saturday

Woke up at 7.10am this morning cause i was feeling so warm.

Went to on the aircon and slept back. Kept waking up in-between.

Finally woke up at 10am cause daddy is coming back home.

End up watching television the whole day . Tried studying physics but nothing seems to be getting into my head.

Damn , hope i don't fail the test on tuesday.

Goodnight (:

Why are motorbikes so pretty ?

2009-02-25T22:03:00.004+08:00

Honda RVF

I was browsing through the Internet ,

when i came across a photo of the most pretty "Honda RVF" that i have seen for now.

Okay , to me it is a pretty bike.

Compared to my boyfriend's previous bike , it is so much more prettier .

Seriously , i don't even know whether pretty is the right word i should use.

Boyfriend was chatting with me online.

And he said he does not want to get a bike licence , i was like freaking out .

He says he wishes and wants to take a car licence.

I thought he share the same interest as me or to say he used to share the same interest in me.

I don't blame him. My liking for bike will never change unless something really happen.

But for now , it will just remain the way it is.

Why did i prefer a bike over a car ?

A motorbike has much more thrill than a car .

For a person like me , the thrill is something which i would go for .

I know parents would say " Motorbikes are dangerous , if we ride on it , we are prone to injuries."

I do not disagree with them . Car are much more safer than any other vehicle .

But the car does not have the thrill and it does not satisfy me . Not much people would go for the thrill as it is very dangerous.

The speed of the motorbike is something which every bike lovers would go for , if i am not wrong.

This are the reasons , why i prefer a bike .

Chill ,

much loves ♥

BORING !

2009-02-24T22:00:00.003+08:00

PSP is a bad influence

SCHOOL

SUPER

BORING

Test ; Shag ; Sickening School ;

2009-02-23T23:10:00.008+08:00

Due to having test for the whole of this week , i didn't have the time to come online to update.

I have been forcing myself to study or to say i was actually motivated to study.

Just by thinking of boyfriend , it makes me want to score well and hear his praises from him.

Though sometimes he would tease me , he still supports me all the way .

We can't be considered as one of the happiest couple but i know we are happy that we have each other.

iloveyou ♥

Today was considered as one of the most unlucky day.

Was caught early in the morning for being untidy. Am i really that untidy or is the school uniform that sucky.

Following on to recess , was caught by "Him" for bringing food up to the class. And we were caught due to the aunty with the screeching voice.

Seriously , my school is a total budget school. Firstly , the canteen fan is spoilt which makes us having to perspire during our recess. Which was one of the reason why we rather eat in the class.

Secondly , some times the school could not even bother to on the fan for us during our lunch or recess break. If you are trying to tell us that this is the way to conserve energy, i believe and think it is totally wrong. I thought the school and the teachers was suppose to put the students in the first place but i guess our school is not doing so.

Thirdly , we have like more than a hundred student in the upper secondary. And with such a small canteen, there isn't any place for most of the students to sit and have their meals.

Fourthly , nowadays the weather is really hot and the school could not even on the fan for us when we assemble in the hall to do our reading. Which makes us perspire more and this will not only make us having no mood to study but also make us feel tired. I thought the school always wants us to do well in our academic but their actions does not prove so.

There is so much more i could name but what is the use ? The school is not going to do anything.

I know it is our fault to bring the food to the class to eat but did they know what was the main problem which made us reacted in this manner.

For all those who know me , good for you guys. You guys know which school i am studying at.

So i hope you all could help your younger brothers or sister make a wise decision when applying for a secondary school.

This school may be good in the academic results , but this school does not know how to treat a student well.

Much loves ♥

Goodnight.

I am sorry

2009-02-19T23:33:00.006+08:00

Hellooooo peeps .

It has been quite awhile since i last update my blog.

Have been really busy with school work and examinations.

All these while, i treat exams like a piece of cake.

In my mind set , as long as i pass my exams. I am happy with it. Even if i fail , it doesn't really matters to me.

Till i reach secondary 5 , life is getting tougher. I experience the pressure and stress which i never experience before.

I start to feel that i have insufficient time for anything or everything. Scoring well began to be my goals.

Although , it is just the beginning and yet i feel i have gone way beyond my limits.

The main reason which i was motivated to do well is cause of boyfriend.

I wanted my parents to accept him so bad that i am working so hard.

But maybe it is due to the stress that i am experiencing now , that's why my attitude to boyfriend totally change.

Or is it , we both have change. That's why communicating to each other became a problem.

I know boyfriend has always tried to gave in to me , tried to tolerate everything about me.

But things just don't work out the way i wanted it to.

Boyfriend was always so magnanimous , it was just me who was spoiling everything.

I apologised. For every hurting words i say to you . For every temper i threw at you for no reason.

I just can't wait ;

2009-02-08T17:14:00.031+08:00

Friday - Group Outing .

Okay , Friday , Me and boyfriend and eight of my friends went to geylang.

Samuel , Jet , Cavell , ChinSeng , Amanda , Yanhui , Sharmaine , Heidi.

Alright , please don't get the wrong idea. We went to geylang to try the good food there.

Frog Leg Porridge. Some of my friends are eating it for the first time so to them , it is delicious.

We were almost lost cause i told them it was lorong 9 but i can't find it there , so we went to lorong 3.

We spent 60 bucks over there. Our next group outing , we are going to try the Claypot rice.
Destination still not sure yet.

After eating , it started raining. And due to a need to take the MRT, we were all drenched while on our way to there.

Boyfriend was the best, trying his best to find ways not to make me get drenched and he wrap me out with a hoodie. So halfway through , Boyfriend and me when seperate ways from my friends.

In the end , i wasn't as drenched as how boyfriend and other friends are.

After that, we went to tampines to catch a movie , " Bride Wars " . It was an awesome movie.

After the movie , boyfriend and me went home while my friends went to eat.

On these particular day ,

I knew and found out how much i love boyfriend.

And i guess he knew too . I feel i am very useless and selfish.

All these months , you have been the one who noticed me and yet i didn't notice you at all .

You know what are my likes and dislikes but yet i don't know yours.

You put me in your first place and yet i took you for granted.

But no matter what happen , you was always there for me.
And just cause you miss your last bus, mainly the reason was cause you were comforting me, and yet i threw a temper at you .
But you did not scold me or said anything which hurt me instead you just gave in to me.

I love you .

Saturday - Studying and Shopping.

This day was planned for me to study . Samuel and me went to study .

But we only study for an hour than we bust to bugis for shopping .

Look at a lot of shops. Spent for like 1 to 2 hours there.

Than we bust back to white sands as samuel has to go home to have dinner with his family.

Boyfriend came to meet me , and we went to catch a movie " All's Well, Ends Well. "

And after that , we went to slack awhile than he sent me home.

Sunday - Housework Day

Okay , today is housework day .

And i am super bored right now .

I just can't wait for next friday. Boyfriend is studying with me and bringing me to roller blade.

And on saturday , I am going to his house to celebrate Valentine's day. He is going to cook for me .

I just miss his cooking so much.

And it is the 3rd month ;

2009-02-05T18:50:00.003+08:00

Happy Third Month-Sary Boyfriend !

Well , all this month it has been a really tough one.
Me having to go school , lesser time to meet my boyfriend .
But guess what , he feels the same way like me too .
Though it was just five to six days that we didn't meet up , he felt it was like ages.
Thats how i feel too and i really miss boyfriend so much in-between.
But this is how it is going to be for us, though boyfriend you are not beside me, i know you are always supporting me in what i do.
And you have always been that awesome boyfriend i always wanted.
I know there are some ups and downs we went through, but we would end it with a laugh.
And i hope it would always end the same way.

And i know you really want to meet me today .
But the thought of you going to pub the day before, i know you would be very tired.
And due to me having a test tomorrow, i have no time for you.
But well, tomorrow we are already meeting so i believe you can wait right.
For these whole week, thanks for sending me morning messages.
When i just woke up, the first thing i wanted to see was your message and my day would always end with a smile.
Thanks for waiting for me to wake up before you go to sleep.

I love you way so much.
It just can't be explain in simple words or even words.
my love ; you were all i ever wanted.